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Snowmen
“Here we go again!”
“Really, Ter, if all you’re going to do is yell,
then go upstairs.” I wasn’t in the mood for another of his outbursts. I already
had a mess on my hands, not to mention a yard full of adolescents to supervise.
I didn’t need a 40 year-old adolescent to supervise, too.
“Fuck you, Chris.” He threw the dish rag, sopping
wet from cleaning up all the melted snow the kids tracked in, into the sink and
stomped through the great room, up the stairs, and down the upper hallway. Slam!
Yep. I could’ve predicted that. Great. I sighed.
We’d been fighting more and more since his layoff two months earlier. I loved
my husband more than anything. But the man needed
to work. He needed the physical exertion, the daily routine, and the social
interaction with other adults. He was not cut out to be a stay-at-home dad.
Then again, neither was I.
We had two beautiful children who we loved and
spoiled. Our eldest, Laurel, just celebrated her tenth birthday. Her younger
brother, Ansel, would be seven in the spring. We adopted them out of the foster
care system; the children had lived with us since Ansel was a toddler. In the
nearly five years that we’d been a family, Ter and I had never fought like we
had since he lost his job. Any minute I was ready for one of our silly and
ridiculous arguments to escalate and the D-word to come flying out of his
mouth.
I looked down at the shattered glass on the floor.
This mess was a prime example. A year ago Ter would’ve helped me clean up the
broken window. Then he would’ve put on his stern face, sat Laurel and Ansel down, and asked who was
responsible for breaking the window. Once we got the truth of it, he and I
would’ve jointly meted out fair and appropriate discipline. Whether that meant
no snow play with the neighborhood kids for the remainder of the winter or assigning
chores until the new window was “paid” for, he and I would’ve done it as a
team.
Instead, when the snowball flew through the air
and shattered our window, Ter jumped up from his near-permanent position on the
couch in the great room, lumbered to the hole, and screamed at the kids in the
yard, ours included. He let the snowball melt on the floor and the glass lay
there while he verbally abused children, half of whom had no idea what he was
even talking about since they’d been sled-riding over our hill and hadn’t seen
the snowball break the window in the first place. I didn’t have to ask them
this to know it; it was common flipping sense. By the time I got to the first
floor from my studio in the attic, Ter was on the verge of a heart attack and
the shattered window glass lay in a pool of water half an inch deep.
I finished cleaning up the broken glass and melted
snow. I’d have to put plastic over the window until the glass could be
replaced. Heaving another sigh and wishing my husband was helping me, I pulled
my boots, gloves, and coat on and trudged out toward the garage. The kids cut
trails all over our driveway chasing each other and gathering up snow. In
addition to the snowball fight that broke the window, they constructed a snow
fort and a pair or snowmen. I smiled at the snowmen, which seemed to be holding
hands. Maybe I was imagining that, but the sticks the kids used for arms just
happened to connect in the center.
Play in the backyard slowed and several of the
kids shot furtive glances in my direction as I opened up the garage and went
inside. I took note of which kids seemed overly interested in me. All the kids
that played with Laurel and Ansel knew they had two dads and wouldn’t give me a
second glance under normal circumstances. Gathering up a large piece of
heavy-duty plastic, my duct tape, and my staple gun, I headed back inside.
“Laurel !
Ansel! Time to come inside! Clean up and send your friends home!”
I got the usual whines and protests, but when I
turned with my arms full of supplies to repair the broken window and they saw
my face, the protests died away.
By the time I got the window covered, Laurel and
Ansel were inside with their winter gear off and the snow they tracked in
cleaned up. They were both on the couch waiting to talk about what happened. We
hadn’t eaten dinner yet. Hell, nobody fixed dinner yet. Ter was still shut up
in his office. I knew if I didn’t go make nice he’d sleep in there on the
daybed.
I was so tired. I was working sixty hour weeks so
we could make ends meet since Ter’s unemployment was a pittance of his last
salary. On top of that he still expected me to do most of the childcare for the
kids and handle over half of the meals. I was resentful that he hadn’t taken
over all the food shopping and meal preparation since he was at home all day.
He didn’t even take care of his share of the housework anymore. The one time I
confronted him, it turned into a huge blow out argument. He screamed at me that
he was depressed and the kids and I sucked the life right out of him.
He agreed to see a therapist but he hadn’t
followed through. I worried about him. I’d never seen him like this, and I
didn’t know what to do for him. He didn’t seem to want me around as anything
other than a cook, maid, or verbal sparring partner. After twelve years of
marriage I wasn’t ready to lose the man I loved over something as mundane as a
lost job.
I had the talk with Laurel and Ansel, who were
both more subdued than usual. The broken window had been the result of a
snowball fight between two warring entities. They had been on one side and
several of the neighborhood kids had been on the other. I understood now why
the other kids eyed me up when I walked to the garage; they were wondering if Laurel
and Ansel had gotten in trouble and if I’d already called their parents. I
hadn’t, but I would. Not that I expected anybody to pay for our window. Things
happened; anybody with kids understood that. But as good neighbors we tried to
keep each other in the loop. All the kids should know better than to have
snowball fights next to any of the houses.
I felt overwhelmed. My left eyelid was doing that
thing where it twitched involuntarily. That was nothing but stress, and it
hadn’t happened since we had to put Ter’s mom in the nursing home. I broke down
and called my parents, something I did rarely. After hearing my voice, though,
my mom agreed to keep the kids overnight.
“You sound like you need a break, Chris.”
“I do. We do. Thanks, Mom.”
“Of course. That’s what grandparents are for.”
I packed Laurel and Ansel up and took them to my
parents. Though I doubted he’d leave his office, I tacked a note explaining
where we’d gone to the table. I stopped off and picked up dinner for us on the
way home as I had no intention of cooking.
When I got back to the house, I put the Thai food
on the counter and opened the wine to let it breathe. My note was no longer on
the table and I cursed inwardly. The one time I was sure Ter would stay inside
his shell brooding, he came out and I wasn’t here to talk. I hoped he would
understand why I’d taken the kids to my parents’ house. I didn’t want to spend
any of the precious time we’d get alone tonight fighting.
I poured two glasses of wine and headed upstairs
with them. When I got halfway up the steps I heard Placebo’s Without You I’m Nothing disc playing. I
closed my eyes and bit my lip, gripping the wine glasses a little tighter. The
first time Ter and I made love was after a Placebo concert. He’d been every bit
as hot as Brian Molko, the lead singer, and the way he looked at me… like the
sun rose and set in my eyes.
I hadn’t seen that look from him in a very long
time.
I made it to the top of the stairs and the
delicious aroma of Noir permeated the entire second floor. Ter must’ve taken a
bubble bath. Oh god, I was getting turned on. I gulped some of the wine, paying
no attention to the glass from which I drank. I honestly couldn’t remember the
last time Ter and I made love. Had it been two weeks? Three? I was ashamed that
I couldn’t come up with a date. Having kids made it difficult, though, and the
extra hours I worked not only cut into my schedule, they left me sapped out,
with little energy for more than doing what I had to do, which lately felt like
everything…
Light flickered through the open doorway of our bedroom.
I took another deep drink of wine. He’d lit candles. By the time I walked all
the way down the hall my heart pounded like a grandfather clock on meth.
Ter had cleaned our bedroom. All the clothes that
had been strewn across the floor were gone. My suits, haphazardly tossed on my
dressing chair and across every other available surface, had all been hung back
up or put in the dry cleaning bag, which hung from the back of our closet door
ready to be taken to the cleaners. The sweet scent of lemon dusting spray
blended with the lavender candles that flickered around the room, relaxing me
as much as the wine. Fresh, crisp, Egyptian cotton sheets in a deep, rich
burgundy covered the bed, and my husband stretched across them, his blond hair
still damp from his bath.
“Hey.” I offered him a glass of wine, which he
accepted. God... I’d forgotten how beautiful he could be when he was all
sprawled out naked. “I got Thai take-out.”
Ter smiled at me, sipping what was a very nice Shiraz . “There’s only one
thing I’m hungry for, Chris.” He set the wine glass on his nightstand and
crawled over to the edge of the bed, kneeling so that he could reach me. When
he slid his big, warm hands under my shirt, I shivered. He hadn’t touched me in
so long. I looked down into his eyes, so blue, and suddenly I couldn’t get my
clothes off fast enough.
He chuckled darkly as I fumbled with buttons and
swore as the zipper on my jeans stuck. I tripped myself getting my socks off
and probably looked like a damn fool hopping around with my hard-on caught in
the fly of a pair of trunks. I didn’t care. I needed my skin against his, all
of it, right now.
Finally I was bare. I drained the wine, moved the
glass so I wouldn’t shatter it, and slid onto the bed next to him. I opened my
mouth to speak and never got the chance. Ter slanted his mouth over mine with a
hunger that made me groan. His tongue lanced into my mouth, the wine flavoring
the kiss, and our erections bumped as he pressed his long body against me.
“I love you.” I trailed kisses along his jaw.
“I’ve missed touching you and I’ve missed your touches.”
“Have you?” He lightly bit my neck. “Prove it.”
My dick leaked like a faucet. I loved it when he
got all aggressive in bed. We were both versatile, but I knew with the loss of
his job and all our arguing that he needed this. And I was so willing to give
it to him. I rolled onto my stomach and arched my back, raising my ass up. His
breath caught, such a delicious sound. I pulled a pillow down and put it under
my belly so my dick would rub the sheets just right.
“Fuck me, baby.” I wiggled my hips, knowing he
loved it. “I need you.”
“Oh god…” Grabbing my wrists and stretching my
arms up above my head, he slammed them down and pinned me to the bed. “I want
you so bad.” His dick slid along my crack in between my cheeks. I couldn’t
remember the last time I’d felt him so hard. He was like fiery steel.
“Then do it.”
Ah, they were the words of twenty year-old kids or
even thirty year-old lovers. But neither of us would ever see thirty again. The
days of rough and tumble, unprepared sex were gone, even with the kids at my
parents’ house. We both knew it wasn’t worth it. He’d planned ahead, though,
and set the Gun Oil out.
His fingers slid into me, slick and wet, and I
rose up, pushing back to meet them. It had been ages since I’d bottomed but
god, it felt amazing. Ter’s fingertips went unerringly to my spot, working it
and me like a machine.
“Ter… Oh fuck… Stop…” His other hand still held my
arms stretched up over my head. I suppose I could’ve fought him but it was too
hot, too erotic to be stretched out tight as a strung bow. “Ter, you have to…
Oh fuck, I’m gonna shoot…”
His mouth moved over my back and trailed scorching
kisses down the length of my spine as he held me down. “Come, Chris. You’re so
sexy…”
I couldn’t stop the motion of my hips, jerking
back and forth to meet his hand. So good, so fucking amazing, the warmth and
feelings of well-being rushed up over me even as the tingles built in my lower
belly and then I couldn’t hold it back any longer. I groaned long and loud and
let go, coming all over the clean sheets in a massive orgasm.
My head spun, my body still filled with sparkles
and tingles as Ter slowly pushed inside me. God, it was delicious. The spread
and burn was almost non-existent after such a major release, and the sensation
of being filled, of having him inside me… I couldn’t help it. Tears poured down
my cheeks.
He let go of my wrists and twined his fingers
through mine, allowing me time to get used to him. Ter wasn’t small, and it had
been a while. After a few seconds, though, I got control of the emotions and
nodded, squeezing his fingers. His arm slid around my chest and he kissed my
ear.
“You okay? Can I move?”
“God, yes.”
I expected a power-fucking. After all, I’d already
come and I knew he had to be going crazy. But no, he moved with a slow, gentle
precision that had me moaning like a bitch in no time flat.
“You like that, don’t you, Chris?”
All I could do was moan and raise my ass up into
his thrusts. My dick was hard and wet again.
“You like a big hard dick in your ass, don’t you,
baby?”
“Ter… fuck… harder! Oh please, fuck me harder!”
“Answer my question.”
“Yes!” He was driving me insane. Every slide over
my spot was sweet torment. I needed more. Deeper, harder thrusts. “The answer
is yes.”
“Say it, Chris. I want to hear you say it.”
“Oh Christ…” His mouth on the back of my neck sent
prickles cascading down my back. I arched into his thrusts. “I like your big
hard dick up my ass. And I need you to fuck me harder, Ter. Now!”
He chuckled. Then he sank his teeth into my
shoulder and got down to business, pounding into me with a relentless,
unforgiving rhythm that brought me right to the brink. He pulled out and
slapped my ass. “Roll over. I want to see your face when you come this time.”
I scrambled to obey, avoiding the wet spot where
I’d come the first time. He slid back inside and we both gasped. “You feel so
fucking good, Chris. So tight and hot.” He leaned down and mated our mouths. The
hair on his belly rubbed my hard dick as he pumped into me and it was almost
enough, almost but not quite.
“Gotta touch,” I gasped, reaching for my dick. He
pushed up so I could stroke off, and at the first touch I knew I was done. “I’m
gonna come, baby.”
“Yeah. Do it.”
His eyes were glued to my cock as his hips
pistoned into me. His blond hair fell forward, shadowing the blue eyes I’d
fallen in love with and I only needed a few tugs to show him what he wanted to
see. I exploded, spurting up onto my stomach and over my hand. My ass clenched
around him and he groaned.
“Oh yeah… that’s the fucking best…” His head went
back and he came with a moan.
He opened his eyes and looked down at me, a
sheepish look on his face. “I didn’t ask if that was OK.”
Lifting a hand I cupped his cheek. “What, coming
inside me?” He nodded. “Well, I think it’s all right. We should’ve looked at
the calendar.”
He frowned. “What the fuck does that have to do
with it?”
“I don’t think I can get pregnant right now, but
you know what they call people who use the rhythm method of birth control…”
Ter slipped out of me as he started laughing. “You
goof.” He grinned at me. “I love you.”
“I love you.”
“I’m sorry for earlier.”
“Me too. We have all night to make up for it.”
“Good. Let’s not waste any of that time.”
We got up and headed downstairs to eat Thai
take-out by candlelight. The snowmen in the yard held hands and watched us.
Awww...so sweet. Lovely make up sex!
ReplyDeleteA sweet story. Loved the making up but there's a part of me that always wonders what happens after "the end." Did they resolve their problems, how long did it take Terry to get a job, etc. I know it's crazy - I drive myself nuts thinking about it.
ReplyDeleteVery sweet.
ReplyDeleteVery hot! You are one of the best love scene writers I have ever found! Excited you will be posting every week now. Just a lil curious if you were going to be posting anymore Dust & Ash entries on your blog, or if you are strictly keeping to GA from mow on. Bad ass poat this week.
ReplyDeleteKatie [wondrgirl05@gmail.com]
This was just amazing! Wow.
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